Sunday, June 17, 2007

Bad Father, Father's Day

Yesterday, at the park, Sofi was reluctant to go on the slide by herself, something she used to do happily. ("Bye bye daddy," she'd say, and slide on down.) This time she insisted on going together - so I admit it, I tricked her, and put her on the slide in front of me and let go. She clutched at my leg and screamed, "I'm falling! I'm falling!" So I rescued her and we went down together but it was too late, the damage had been done, trust had been sundered. She cried and I tried to comfort her and she said she wanted mama so I said great, let's go home and see mama. But she wouldn't let me put her in the stroller. "Do you want to walk?" I asked. No. "What do you want?" "Mama." I didn't have my cell on me, so even if I wanted to call Cathy and make her drive out it wasn't an option. I know, this usually works: "I'm going to go home and see mama," I said. "You can come if you want." And I walked out of sight around the corner with the stroller.
She didn't follow; she just stayed in the park and cried.
Great. Now what? If I go back that's just negotiating with terrorists. If I don't go back I'm an ass$#@! I choose to be an ass%$#@ for several excruciating minutes but then she finally comes after me.
"You want to go home to see mama now?"
"You want to go in the stroller?"
Thank God. I start to put her in the stroller and she suddenly changes her mind, arching her back and screaming "No!"
I freak out. "Okay, now I'm angry! You've made me angry! Good job!" I force her down and buckle her up and push her home as fast as I can, with her crying most of the way.
Later, once she calmed down and seemed to love me again, I tried to apologize: "I'm sorry I put you on the slide by yourself." She seemed to get misty eyed and said, "No." I guess she didn't want to be reminded. Maybe when she's older she'll read this blog and forgive me then. (Or maybe she'll take it as symbolic of our entire relationship.)

So, had a great father's day, anyhow! Whether I deserved it or not! Breakfast in bed (poached eggs); fish tacos at Coho's; and Nishino's for dinner, which was a big surprise, since last time Cathy ate there she got sick, so I figured we'd never go back again. Best sushi I've found so far in Seattle, IMO, but I guess you should avoid the bivalves.
Sofi's now old enough to say, "Happy Sather's Day."
And Cathy gave me vouchers redeemable to play boardgames with her. And we're talking geek games like Emperor's Treasure and Battlelore. That's love.


scrapcat said...

glad you had fun today!!!
best father's day EVER, right?

Nicole said...
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Nicole said...

I popped over from Cathy's blog. And seriously - this made me laugh out loud! Sometimes pushing them gently into the grown up world can be more like a nasty shove in their eyes. :)

Anne said...

** snicker **

I had your day yesterday.

At a bookstore.

John Sage wandered around the corner to the Goosebumps/Bionicle/Star Wars section while I was prowling the cookbooks looking for pemmican recipes.

Without thinking, I drifted around the OTHER corner.

He popped back around HIS corner, and I was gone.

He set off to look for me.

I came back around to his corner, and called his name.

He immediately appeared, eyes red and slightly moist, and informed me, in the wounded tone unique to betrayed children, "I hope you know that I like Daddy better."

I did keep a straight face.

Jamie said...

Ouch - I still get upset when Sofi clearly prefers mama.